Perpetual State of Flux

If I were still tumbling I'd simply reblog this...

And I like it so much, I signed in just to direct your attention to it...

Trying really hard not to start the emo blogging

It's hard to come back to New York after 10 stress free days on the beach with my new husband.  It just is. A fact that was made monumentally more difficult by some bad early afternoon decisions involving a bottle of duty-free Patron, one woman's raging hormones (the one's that turn otherwise lovely young gal into a fire breathing harpy), Mario Cart and a rather pathetic attempt at a game of Yahtzee. 

Now, it's Monday and my pee soaked apartment remains a malodorous disaster (my 17 year old beloved grows more incontinent by the day), I've got oodles of laundry to do and about $70 worth of produce to eat before the chorus of "I told you sos" breaks out from the sofa (although we managed to get through all of the limes on Saturday...go figure).

As I sit here reflecting on this great debacle, I'm waiting to go into a meeting that was supposed to start three hours ago - one where my ass will more assuredly get unceremoniously handed to me.

And to top it all of - the post went up to 50 cents today.  Bastards!

In addition to my normal clean underwear providing chores, I have a running list of things quality of life tasks that I'm itching to do.  And when I say itching, I mean I think a lot about it but never actually do it.

Among these tasks  -

1. Update my iPod. Not only am I sick of everything I have on here, when I uploaded my music (two years ago?) I set it up so there there wouldn't be duplicate songs.  Little did I know that this would prevent 70% of my albums from being uploaded.  Let me assure you that I didn't buy "J to the Lo" - the remix album for the great selection of previously unreleased dance hits.  Nosireebob!  I don't know how I've managed to make it through these last two years without the Murder Inc. version of "I'm Real".
2. Update my blogroll. I've been on a bit of a mid-blog crisis as of late.  I've stopped reading blogs that made me feel bad about myself, started reading blogs that made me feel worse, started reading the old blogs, stopped reading the new, ultimately abandoned some all together and then found some more.  I thought about tossing in a Brokeback joke here but even this JLo loving emo-blogger knows that about as original as a Diablo Cody script!  HUZZAH! 
3. Update my list of creepy actors who I can no longer like because of their affiliation to a certain "church"...I'm looking at you Will Smith.
4. Decide what to do with that bookcase and the contents of said bookcase which seems to be the focus off all my crazy.  Seriously, I'm feeling overwhelmed by this desire to make my life more simple and this innocent bookcase in my living room is the focus of my attentions. Don't get me wrong...I HATE THIS BOOKCASE.  But it really isn't the root of any of my problems or my issues. Some might say I'm projecting.
5. Stop making lists in my head.

To this end - if any of you have any great ideas regarding new music, blogs, effective ways to combat clutter in a Manhattan apartment - will you help a girl out?  Additionally, I would love a yoga buddy on the UWS.  I mention this because I'm learning that sometimes in order to get what you need or what you want you've just gotta ask. 

Top Ten List

My favorite things about my recent trip to Virgin Gorda.

10. Snorkeling for the very first time and while I saw some beautiful fish among the reefs, I did not see anything too scary!

9.   Little Dix Bay. 

8.  Rum punch and our arrival bottle of rum.  Never been much of a rum drinker but I was delightfully converted.

7.  Morning breakfast buffets. I love breakfast and this spread was just sinful.

6.  The brown pelicans who littered the beach and amused us with their fishing endeavors.

5.  The chameleon/gecko/lizard who inhabited our outdoor shower.

4.  Spending the day on a catamaran - complete with a visit to Bitter End.  Dreaming of being a true sailor. 

3. Ting. Oh, Ting. How I wish I could have you everyday.

2. Ting with a sting!  Combining two things of my top ten list to come up with a third.

And last but not least...

1. Eloping with my very best friend and the love of my life.

 

MIA

So, I had jury duty. Then I was back at work for a week. Then I left for a conference in Toronto. Now I've been back for a week and I leave again.  I've been crazed. Sorry for the lack of posts my friends. I'll be back in full effect very soon.

I love having a bad experience with a company and then going to google and typing in said company's name followed by the word "sucks".

Today's offender - American Airlines.  It seems I'm not the only one.

I decided a long time ago that one a company's good name is lost in my eyes, it is lost forever.  I have two reservations on AA and then I am done.

I told them this and they didn't seem all that sad to lose my business. I hope they go belly up and fast. They suck.

Yes, American Airlines SUCKS!

HELLO? Is anyone out there?

I'm back!  I've grown tired of wading in the kiddie pool. That sounds disparaging but it isn't mean to be. Tumbling is fun and I'm still going to work on my new joint effort with Katie. But I need to get back to the good old fashion angst filled introspection that I am so skilled at.

(Rambling here)

You see, I'm still struggling to find myself and I've gotta try to look everywhere.  I see all these fabulous 20 somethings doing all this fun and amazing stuff in the city and I think "I need to be there!" - so I jump in head first.

And it is fabulous!  But it isn't exactly me.

I think the most important thing I learn through these trials and tribulations is that I need to take pride in the things that I have lived through. I need to grow and continue moving on through life. There isn't anything cool or fun about jogging in place. 

Again, I don't expect this to make much sense.  Life is insane these days.  GOOD but crazy insane.

Anyway, I'm back to psof.com. I prefer the padded walls anyway.

I still feel like I am wading through muck as one is wont to feel with a lingering head cold.  AND this has left things kind of murky which explains much of my general confusion of the past few days.  YET nothing quite explains Kellie Pickler's voice on Idol last night and why despite all the confusion (did her voice always sound like a kewpie doll on crack?) I kind of liked it?

Still tumbling...

at perpetualstateofflux.tumblr.com...but I have to remedy this two blog format soon.  But not today...today I'm Scarlett O'Hara with a wicked head cold.

I want to blog. I really do!

Life is just kind of...*don't say boring. don't say boring*...simple lately.

I have been tumbling on occasion. So check it out if you want a small slice of the L.

Ahhhhhhhhhhh, yeah...

What I've Been Up To

• Watching In Treatment. Last night I watched the most recent Laura and Alex episodes.  WOW! Alex has been my least favorite character thus far but seeing that vulnerability last night made me a Blair Underwood fan.  It would take a lot for a girl to like Alex (wretched man!) but Blair showed some serious acting skills last night.
• Loving David Archuleta.  I’m kind of crushing on him.  Platonic crushing but crushing nonetheless. 
• Pining for a new episode of LOST.  Man, it is so good right now. The episodes are too short and the week between them is too long.
• Enjoying sunshine on my face. In the rare moments when I’m not watching TV (which based on my first three bullets isn’t all that often. OY!).  Sunshine and the first few signs of spring are heaven.
• Missing cheese (although only slightly) and discovering a whole new world of food as I complete week two of my newly adopted “vegan” lifestyle.  I’m doing pretty well and reading a great deal of food labels (exciting stuff to be sure!).  It’s odd how happy this is making me.  I won’t go into the reasons for this change (very little to do with diet) but I’m having a lot of fun exploring this world. I don’t feel restricted at all and I’m eating so many delicious fruits and vegetables.
• Which leads me to the next bullet…I’m cooking.  SHOCK OF ALL SHOCKS to be sure.  Nothing extravagant although I’m thinking I might try some baking this weekend. 
• Uttering phrases I’ve never uttered before like “I might try some baking this weekend.”
• Taking the bus more.  Still not rising enough to have a completely cab free morning but I’m getting there.
• Getting to bed earlier.  Although not as early as I would like but I’m getting there. I don’t think I’ve seen midnight on a work night in two weeks.
• Fasting on celebrity gossip.

All in all it’s been pretty boring which explains the lack of blogging.  I miss it and the relationships I have from writing. I love hearing from everyone and when I don’t…I miss you.  AND I don’t want to blog only when I’m feeling sad and venting about the world. It’s nice to relate on the good things too. So, I’m going to try that too.